Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Has it been that long....

I really can't believe it has been so long since I wrote that last post! I have thought often about writing an update and filling you in on the party & workout over the last 8 weeks but honestly I have not been about to find the words. But as we are now only 12 days away from R1/11 Kick off, I think it is time to drag some thoughts out. Lets break it down into bits.....

Train trip! My WORST fears were realized when I arrived at Southern Cross station to be told that the train to Sydney had been replaced with a bus!! EEkkk No one had any sensible information, and there was a lot of confusion as we were herded down to the bus terminal. THANKFULLY our bus driver was lovely and he informed us we only had to get the bus to Albury, then on a train the rest of the way. While waiting to board I noticed an older lady looking rather distressed & feeling a bit that way myself we started chatting. Turned out she had a medical issue that required regular & easy access to a toilet and if you have traveled on a bus you know you don't get that. We decided then and there to buddy up, and honestly I would not have managed the trip without Margaret.We chatted the whole way and the time passed very quickly. She had also had a quiet word to the driver and he promised to take care of her and he did. A comfort stop about half way had as all comfortable so to speak. LOL I don't think I have ever been so pleased to get on a train. I had been dreading it, but after the bus it was a dream. Margaret was just in the next carriage so we caught up for a chat again a couple of times before she got off a few stops before Central.

We had more delays on the way, and got into Sydney almost 90min late....THANK GOD Lee Ann & Jodie were on the platform waiting for me. So I had gotten to Sydney, now I had to BE in Sydney....We chatted till late and then staggered to bed, poor Jodie was actually Jetlagged from coming from Perth...We had breakfast together then headed off in our own directions. I had a lunch date with my cousin then planned to shop. The city was very overwhelming....so noisy and I know I spent a LOT of time walking around in circles. This was the 2nd time I was muchly grateful for having lost 20kg.....(the first was when I had to squish into the teeni bus seat) The others found me in town after their adventures then we headed home. As the sun set we headed down to The Rocks Night Market and met up with some of the gang from Perth & grabbed a late dinner....silly to say but it felt like a very grown up thing to do.....LOL (No I don't get out much)Back home again for another late night chat AND the disappointing news that Andrea had missed her plane and would not be arriving till the next morning.

So grateful to be so tired that night as I am sure the excitement of the next day should have kept me awake...reasonable nights sleep...to wake up to a brilliant Sydney day, clear and just warm enough! Off we head to our Work out with Mish......uuugghhh I think most of us would say I have no idea of what we were worried about....we had been preparing for this for 12 weeks.....It was exciting...found myself some buddies for the time trail. (Thanks Lizzie B for pushing me just that little bit) Mish is tough but fair, I would have loved to have spend MORE time with Amelia learning MORE about running and the boot camp guys....well they were just HOT!! And very kind to a bunch of mildly terrified (mostly) women!! Training done, home again to primp & preen for the party.

I really don't get out much, have very little experience of bars & clubs so the whole evening was an eye opener for me....Trying desperately to look like I belonged but stuggling not to just gaze around in dumb struck wonder. Walked home barefoot....and once again crashed into bed.

Sunday was probably my worst day. I believe now I was terribly dehydrated, but as Lee Ann headed home, and Jodie & Andrea headed off to conquer the bridge I went shopping. Promptly had myself a panic attack in the food court under Myer...THANKFULLY ran into Jennali who hugged me & soothed my addled brain with words of understanding and empathy. Then miracle of all miracles...bumped into some more peeps just returning from training with Emazon. From feeling all alone I was suddenly surrounded with friends...thank you to the man upstairs.

Later that afternoon, my husband & 3 of our children arrived for our week in Sydney and I farewelled Jodie & Andrea to fly home. The Bozzy's jumped in the car to go have an early Christmas with in Laws...It was a strange transition....I had not wanted the weekend to be over...I wanted more time with the girls to debrief. I think if any of those 3 read this they will probably be reading about my bad Sunday for the first time....Unfortunately my family didn't get the best of me for the first couple of days as I was still trying to process my weekend. That weekend was certainly a defining one for me....I did so many things for the first time...but even now I still don't really know how to explain how I feel about it.. Obviously I can tell you stories....but ask me to tell you how I feel and I can't find the words.

I want to leave you with a video of an activity that we did as a family one day on our Sydney adventure. It was fun to do it as a family, but it was also a milestone for ME as ME. This is absolutely the type of thing I would have watched before....been the spectator...taken pictures...you know sat on the sidelines..but I guess at the moment I am in a "What the Hell" kind a phase.....it may not seem like much but it is a proud moment for me....AND I think I look pretty good doing it!!

Cheers & Bring on Feb 21

Lynda

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

The LAST Weigh in & Party Time

First...here are some pictures.....



Now some numbers

Week 1 Week 12 Difference
Weight 99.2kg 89.5kg -9.7kg
Bust 110cm 105cm - 5cm
Waist 91cm 83cm - 8cm
Hips 120cm 111cm - 9cm
Thigh L 71cm 65cm - 6cm
Thigh R 72cm 65cm - 7cm

That is a total of 35cm lost!!! And JUST short of 10kg for this round. A GRAND total of 20.5kg For both Rounds..... I have just a little smidge of disappointment: So many of the goals I set at the beginning of this Round disappeared. Not sure why, if maybe I set my sights too high or got freaked out a little. Maybe a bit of both. LOL

SO.....the party!!

About this time in 12 hours I will be boarding the train to Sydney. I am HOPING desperately that the floods that are happening around Vic & NSW don't through a spanner in my plans....UUGGghhh Trapped on a train surrounded by water...LOL I am surprisingly calm considering how highly strung I have been leading up to NOW. I do feel a bit sick right now, but I think that is as much the ridiculous humidity we have been having in Melbourne the last 2 weeks. I don't cope well with heat & humidity.

I have had so many thoughts running around my brain the last few weeks, I have written about a dozen blog posts in my head but have never quite gotten them actually posted. Too scared to voice the fears that have been plaguing me, or too scattered to find the few moments it would have taken to type them out. I guess I have been suffering a little from paralysis by analysis. Over-thinking, imagining, projecting... then freaking out a bit. But I am in for better or worse. I think I have imagined every worse case scenario.... which is about normal for me. AND the anxiety is to be expected when I am pushing myself SOOOOO far out of my comfort zone. No pain no gain they say....Michelle talked tonight in the live feed about your brain needing to catchup to the reality of the new body etc. The same applies to me and my ability to do stuff. For so long I have been defined by what I couldn't do. I couldn't drive, therefore I couldn't go out on my own, I hated being home on my own but struggled being out in public with people. I struggled to stand still long enough to cook, I couldn't sit still long enough to eat, I couldn't shower or clean my teeth without having panic attack. I didn't go to the movies for YEARS I missed birthday parties, weddings, funerals and the grief & guilt that goes with missing significant events like that cuts deep.It has really been like life has been lived around me, and I am just an observer. I have finally stopped beating myself up about the things I cannot change and have decided to move forward with purpose. I don't want to be stuck at home anymore I don't want to miss things...

So tomorrow I board the train....to take a big step in recovering my life. Will check in from Sydney to let you know how it went....LOL Maybe even from the train...if I can get internet service...For those of you that I will FINALLY get to meet...I CAN HARDLY wait...YOU guys are my prize for making the journey!!!

cheers & See you in Sydney

Lynda

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Non scale Victories....



What can a Non Scale Victory have to do with the back end of a couple of cars you ask??

A month or so before I started my first Round of the 12WBT, I found myself in a pickle. Leaving the shopping center rather late, I came back to my car and found the only other car in the carpark, parked SO close to my car that I couldn't get in the drivers door. It also dawned on me that I was in no way capable of either climbing through the back of the car or getting across the console from the passenger side. Thankfully I had the kids with me and my learner driver WAS able to get in and move the car forward so I could drive home.....just a little embarrassing.

Well today it happened again BUT there was more people around (Extra embarrassing) AND no handy skinny extra driver with me to get me out of my bind. Now I accept it was partly my fault, as you can see I am fairly close to the line also (I am the red car) and the angle of the shot actually makes my car look closer than it was. The other driver was probably concerned about the concrete pole on the other side of their park. Thinking like a fat person, I started to freak out just a little....but then I remembered I was not so fat anymore...funny how you have to "remember" that hey! SO with a bit of a wiggle and sucking ALL the way in.....I got in bloody car. I seriously sat in the driver seat thinking bugger me how did I do that?? Grinning like a goof ball at the same time I must add.

SO in a week when the scales have once again been fickle....I am grateful to have a timely reminder that thing are changing: that I AM changing....AND it is making life easier!!

cheers

Lynda

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Triathlon Tuesday

What a day.......

I was not able to complete my Tri over the weekend and planned to do it today BUT also wanted to wait till I had my HR monitor back. (I sent it away last week to be repaired) Thankfully it came back yesterday so all was GO for today. I am still rated as a beginner as far as exercise goes....but I really want to try and push a little past the distances expected: They were 800m swim, 5km walk/run, 10km Bike ride. Last round I completed the tri at the gym, but now that I am more comfortable on the bike I decided I really wanted to do it all outside....so the plan was to walk to pool, swim, walk home & jump on bike. I was not entirely happy about splitting the walk but for practical reasons it was the sensible thing to do.

Set off in a good but possibly apprehensive state of mind....I have very good at the self talk thing....very good at talking myself out of thing actually. But did the 2km to the pool in around 20min. Met my mum, who was planning on paddling around while I churned up & down the pool. The swim leg was the one I was most unsure about and honestly I would prefer to do it last.....one of the reasons is the way being in water makes me feel. I HATE that heavy feeling you get when you get out....HATE IT. Does my head in, just like being on the treadmill.....ANYWAY I did my 16 laps and thought, well it is only 4 more to have done the whole 1km...so off I set. I could really feel my neck tightening up...so had to switch between strokes but I got it done. I jumped in the shower to rinse off. While in there I realized I was feeling extra strange, in fact my head felt SUPER heavy and I felt like I was going to tip over. This of course completely freaked me out.......and I started having one of those conversations in my head. You know the shall I shan't I convo's. Debating whether to walk home or not. I have to admit I bailed & got my mum to drive me home. And once I got home I started the whole "you have let yourself down conversation" Thankfully I rallied, and figured I could head out for more walking and stay close to home, basicly I applied the 10min rule. I started out very slowly & cautiously but thankfully I found my legs and started chewing up the km. I was aiming for 3, so that with the 2 I did at the beginning, I had my 5....but decided on the fly to see how far I could go. I cranked out just over 5, which gives me a total of just under 7km walking. The bike was HARD. Legs very very tired! I have been riding 12km regularly, so I knew I could do more....I just didn't know if I could today after swimming & walking. It was slow, awkward & laboured...but I managed to complete 13.5km. 15 would have been nice but I was running out of time.

So the stats for the day are

Walk: 1.93km - 21:22 / 154 Calories
Swim: 1km - 51:40 / 221 Calories
Walk: 5.01km - 1:06:23 / 456 Calories
Ride: 13.49km - 1:08:33 / 477 Calories

21.43km / 208 min /1308 Calories

Pretty happy with that....who knows what I will like tomorrow....but for now sleep.


cheers

Lynda

PS Cautiously optimistic about weigh in day....will let you know 1 way or the other tomorrow afternoon

Friday, November 12, 2010

What a week.....

Those of you who follow me on twitter will have gained the impression that I have had an ordinary week. I am sorry if I have been vague, but for a lot of reasons I have felt the need to internalize most of my thoughts & feelings. That is actually a WEIRD frame of mind for me....coz I talk!! I mean really talk....especially when I am upset or nervous.....(You guys who are staying with me in Sydney better get your listening ears ready!!)So as twitter is so VERY limiting in a character sense, I figured a nice long blog post might be the best way to get it all out!!

The week started off on Sunday with news that 3 elderly people whom I love & respect dearly were all really struggling. In one case it was simply an old age thing (94 years old), another The prostate cancer he has been battling for 10 years is finally taking over....the other heart issues. Both of the gentlemen are in their 80's, both in fact celebrated their 60th wedding anniversaries this year within weeks of each other. They have all valued & encouraged me over a number of years and just the thought of their passing has me in tears.

Wednesday morning Elsie left us.....the Funeral is Monday and I am VERY pleased to have been asked to assist with afternoon tea. It will give me something to focus on...I will need it! Rolled up in this sadness I guess is also knowing that Bill & Vic will not be far behind. I feel so grateful to have known these people and pray daily that I will be able to live by their example.

Weigh in day SUCKED.(and until I heard about Elsie I was very miserable about it, funny how life puts things in perspective) I GAINED 1.8kg!! GAINED almost 2 kg in a week?? Uugghh I had predicted with it being T.T.O.M. weigh in would suck but really, even I had not predicted that. I checked again on Thursday & I had LOST 1.1kg overnight.This morning I had LOST another 400g.... Now I KNOW I can fluctuate that much over a week....but I have NEVER had to actually record that...just this month it happened on a Wednesday. I know it is not a "real" gain....but it still bites!

Wednesday was a really really sucky day....coz THEN we noticed that our old and much beloved dog Socks was not well... We actually lost him for an hour, we thought he had gotten out which is one of his favourite tricks. While searching the house for him we found a very large vomit...and that was when alarm bells really started ringing for me. We eventually found him (after dark) tucked away under a bush in the back yard, pretty much comatose. We finally got him to wake up, and stand up but it was obvious he was not well. Off to the Vet at 9pm, sent home with antibiotics & an electrolyte solution. Our dogs sleep inside, well they are always inside so I found it a little strange and very disconcerting when he asked to go out at 4.30am then would not come back in. He curled up on their outside bed, and I decided to leave him in peace. Thursday morning we found him once again curled up way back in the garden....over the course of the morning, he would not eat or drink and he just slept & slept....appeared very groggy if I ever tried to check on him. 1pm I had had enough...being a warm day I was very worried about his hydration levels. Back to the Vet....this time they kept him for tests. Those tests confirmed the Vets suspicion that he was suffering from Pancreatitis and he would require hospitalization and IV fluids. (I had NEVER heard of dogs getting this, but I have since found out that I know 3 dogs that have had it....) I was told to expect that he could need to be in care for up to 3 days....THANKFULLY when we went to visit him at 8pm last night we found a very different dog, fluids and pain relief had worked wonders (Pancreatitis is excruciatingly painful I am told) This morning he held down the few bites of breakfast they gave him, and he ate a whole bowl at lunch!! Star patient it seems...good enough to be released late this afternoon. MAN it has been scary and it is great to have him home. Though I think I am driving him mad checking on him all the time. I always knew we would be sad to loose Socks. The Vet told me today his breed has a life expectancy of 12-15 years...and he is 13, so it is coming. This week has really bought home to me what an important part of our family He is....and I spent most of it thinking that this was it...that I would not get to bring him home....so glad we have some more time!

So thus ends the week....I am hoping for a much more peaceful weekend....STARTING tonight with a good night sleep....I have been up 3 or 4 times most nights this week. I have a headache now.....and I know it is simply a you need to sleep & de-stress kinda headache!

Thank you to everyone who has sent me messages of encouragement....I really do appreciate it

cheers

Lynda

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Week 7 Recipe Comp.....

I LOVE bacon & eggs, it brings back so many childhood memories of visits with my Grandparents. Was not sure if I would be able to give the up completely so I had to find a new & better way of eating it!! I am now good at getting this served up super quick…..very much a fav of mine!!

Lunch (292 Calories)

Egg & Bacon Salad with Crunchy Garlic Croutons



Ingredients
50 g of Gourmet Lettuce
20 g of Baby Spinach
70 g of Tomato (Chopped)
70 g of Cucumber (Chopped)
50 g of Capsicum, Green or Red (Chopped)
1 egg, large (53g)
50g of Shortcut Rindless Bacon (Cut into thin Strips)
1 Slice of Wholegrain Bread
1Teaspoon of Olive Oil
1 Teaspoon (5g) of MasterFoods Tuscan Seasonings (This contains, garlic, salt, pepper, Rosemary & Parsley)

Method
1 Chop bread into 4 fingers, then cross cut each into 4 so that you have 16 croutons.

2 Place the teaspoon of oil in a small bowl with a good shake of the Tuscan Seasoning. Toss the bread around in the oil making sure that each one gets a good coating.

3 Heat a small non stick fry pan till it is nice and hot & toss the croutons around till then are golden & crispy. Set aside. (These can also be baked in the oven if you like but it seems like a waste to turn the oven on for just a few min)

4 Crack the egg into a cup & beat well. Pour into the still hot fry pan and swirl it around till egg covers the whole bottom of the pan in a thin layer. Reduce heat. Left Undisturbed for a few minutes the egg “Pancake” will cook through. There should be no need to flip it. Remove from pan & set aside to cool.

5 Place bacon in the pan and cook till brown & crispy. (Set aside to cool just slightly)

6 Roll the egg Pancake into a tube, and cut it into ribbons.

7 Place the lettuce, tomatoe, cucumber, capsicum, bacon, egg ribbons & finally croutons in a nice size bowl, grab a fork & tuck in!!